Category Archives: Love

Camping on the Columbia River with John


In June of 2016 I wrote a post called  on a Nickel, and I have done a ton of camping since then with my pitty Bella and we would sleep in the back of my Dodge Durango with the seats down on the self inflatable air mattress. This weekend John & I bought a second hard kayak so that we would both have one and we went camping down by the islands on the Columbia River in Woodland, Washington. It is so beautiful down there! We kayaked out to one of the islands and walked around the entire thing before kayaking back, we sat around our fire enjoying the beautiful sunset both nights we were there! It didn’t cost us anything to camp there… We brought food from home, packed up our gear and drove the 10 minutes from our house to get there. It was the best camping trip I’ve gone on in years! I love our new kayak, it is so easy to control on the water! We also ordered a new Field & Stream tent from Dick’s Sporting Goods, it is a 12 x 12 pop up canopy and the tent snaps right into it and it can be used as the tent or the pop up by itself. We’re super excited to get it because it’s eight feet tall John can stand up inside (he is 6’4″ tall) so finding a comfortable tent isn’t easy and this one is going to be a great fit for us! After we get it and take it out camping, I will write a review for you all so that you know how well we like it, the pro’s & con’s of it and whether we recommend it to you.

We also have bikes and John has been taking me for short bike rides to help strengthen my legs and practice my balance because I have been falling a lot again….(he says he wants to wrap me in bubble wrap so that I don’t get hurt, lol). He is very protective and caring and I make him nervous with how often I fall. He is an incredible boyfriend! John bough me a promise ring a month or so ago and then asked me to marry him a couple weeks later when we went to Long Beach for the day…of course I said YES!!! It won’t happen anytime soon; my divorce just got finalized but we are happily engaged; living together in Woodland Washington; with the Lewis River running through our back yard! I couldn’t be any happier! 

Thank you all for your love & support as always! Now that my life is situated I will get back to posting more regularly! Until next time, try to find the good in everything and let go of the negativity, it will generate happiness, better health and more love!


Just Another Post in the Night


I guess it’s a two post kind of night/morning. Maybe I just have a lot to say or maybe I’m a little anxious about what today will bring. I am scheduled for a lumbar epidural later today, and even though I’ve had close to 50 or more of them over the past 15 years it doesn’t make it any less scary… I always remember how bad they hurt and there are always risks involved when they are going into your spine with a large catheter needle. I’ve been having them in my low back, my SI joint, and my neck for years to help with pain, numbness an constant burning aches. Sometimes my legs hurt all the way through the bone and they get so weak, I walk with a walker and a cane to help me balance and accommodate for my lack of strength. My left leg is drop foot and has been for years, I even have a brace for my left leg that is build onto my shoe and goes mid way up my thigh. It’s a good time to have it done because my pain is at an extreme point right now and it gives me some recovery time before my next show.

Every other weekend I go to parents house to spend my time with my boys during their baseball season because they have games and tournaments down there and I love being a part of what they do as often as I can; however it makes it really difficult to be gone so often and this is the weekend I go down there. It’s also extremely difficult for me to sit there too long watching their sports because it increases my pain. So I am a little worried about how well I will do at their sports functions this weekend being right after my epidural and such, so I’m praying they hit the exact spot that they need to help my pain decrease. I’m staying down there at the end of this weekend because my Mom and I are taking off to California afterward.

My Grandma recently sold her home and moved into an assisted living facility about a month or so ago and her health started taking a turn for the worse right after moving in. She wasn’t in great health when she moved in, that’s what helped her make the decision to sell her home and make that move, but my Mom said she wasn’t doing bad like she is now that’s for sure. Over the last year she has been in remission from breast cancer, we were so excited to find out the very day she was clean from cancer!!! That was an amazing day with amazing news! Now she was just diagnosed with some form of Leukemia and she can’t even walk across her own room and is practically wheel chair bound, and just like that – it hit her like a freight train. Please pray for her if you would.

My Mom and I are heading down on Tuesday. We would be heading down right after my boys go back to their Dad however; my Step-Grandma on my Dad’s side also has breast cancer and my Mom is the one who takes her to her chemo treatments and then she goes in for an injection the day after her chemo each week. So Grandma Cherie has chemo on Mondays and injections on Tuesdays so we have to wait and leave after her Tuesday morning injection.

So I’m hoping my epidural goes great and is a very successful one to cut back some of my pain… It’s difficult for me to even think about my pain at a time like this when so many others have it worse than me. I will not disclose names or identities on these two people because I don’t have permission to disclose that but my husband Chris has two very close family members that both have stage 4 cancer. One is getting chemo treatments for almost two years now and the other is not getting treatment to cure the cancer they are just enjoying the time they have left here with family and friends. That’s a really hard choice to make and its been really difficult on my husband and our family. I know God has His hands in these miracles because all of these above mentioned loved ones are still with us each and every day!! PRAISE GOD FOR ALL HIS WORK IN OUR DAILY LIVES!!!

Welcome to our crazy chaotic lives… My husband and our son are getting ready to go on an all men’s family charter fishing trip for Father’s Day and when they return from that our son is going on a youth group road trip for 5 days, he’s super duper excited!!! My hubby doesn’t know this yet but if he reads this blog entry he’s soon to find out tehehehe: my friend Carol Ann got us a bottle of wine and while our son is gone she is going to drive us out to the lake in her convertible car with the top down with our bottle wine and beautiful crystal wine glasses so that we can walk around the lake front drinking a bottle of wine and just talking and holding hands… Just a little romantic date night and we have a designated driver home when ever we are finished. Carol Ann is another one of my best friends, she’s the one who invited me to Miami last year and I went down for a couple weeks and stayed with her at her mom’s house. Man we had two weeks of non stop fun! I came back with a new tattoo and boxes of stuff I had to mail home. Not to mention the heat down there really did me some good. I felt better down there… I do feel better here when the weather gets warm, the difference is we only get a couple months of heat where as Miami gets a lot more heat than we do. That was a killer girlfriend vacay and I can’t wait to take a vacation like that with my hubby! We need one!!

So after next week when i get back from Cali I have to get back to my hustle and bustle of preparation for our next Vintage Market… This time will be at a lot better place an not all jam packed into a few days of making, building, preparing; I learned that one the hard way.

I’m very grateful for your support and I’m asking a huge favor that you pray uplifting, healing, answers, safety, faith for those who may not have enough of it on there own for our family as we are going through so much turmoil of bad health right now. Thank you again for following along and showing you’re support! God Bless!

Something a Little Different


I hope y’all had an amazing week!!! I missed you guys. What did you think about about the jars I made for my Facebook page giveaway? Weren’t they great? I sure hope you loved them as much as I did, if so make sure you have liked my page so that you too are entered in for the next giveaway! If you have questions on that let me know.

I am going to show you the sign I made and talk about it a little bit, but other than that this post is mainly going to be about my health saga and the power of positivity, faith, love and happiness! So please please read on to know what I’ve gone through with my health in the past few years and how my family and I make life an amazing adventure every day!!!

Last week I made another sign and I’m working on another one today as well. I have to get enough signs done before our vintage craft bazaar. It is called Cirque SoirĂ©e Vintage Carnival on June 13. I’m very excited and I’ve been working so hard on things to fill my booth with! I’m hoping some of my locals will come out to see me there, it’s going to be such an exciting and fun experience for everyone! So back to this sign I made, (lol sorry the excitement gets me side tracked)… I of course painted the board itself chalk paint white all over 2 coats. Then I sanded, sanded and yeah I think you know this drill by now. Anyways I wanted this sign to say “Beach” with an arrow pointing. I just happened to be at Jill’s house and she has a printer (wooo doggy) so I printed out a few different things a couple that I haven’t even picked out the wood for yet so hopefully I find something that works. I cut everything out that needed cut and I taped down with painters tape and then I slid a piece of carbon paper between the paper and the wood, then traced the outline of the letters very lightly so I could see it on the wood yet the paint would cover it up. I painted my letters in a light beachy blue color and then I painted different types of arrows after the lettering in ‘cattywhompus’ placement; painted one black, one red and one darker blue. I love that word don’t you!?!?

I will be making more signs in the up-coming weeks and I need to get busy making cards, jewelry, aprons and refurbishing the furniture items and windows I have hanging out in the garage waiting to be pulled out and played with.

I know in the past I have told you that I fight with a lot of health issues and now they seem to be fighting back! I have Hashimoto’s Disease and Fibromyalgia which are both autoimmune diseases that reek a lot of havoc on my body in different ways. I also have another autoimmune disease that has similar symptoms to MS. The Hashimoto’s affects so much from extreme cold sweats, sudden changes of emotional ups and downs, and swelling in my throat that causes me to choke on food and even sometimes drinks.

The fibromyalgia causes a lot of pain all over my body, weakness, numbness and originally I thought that was all it was is pain in the nerves, but my neurologist and my rheumatologist both conclude that many of my symptoms are caused by a very extreme case of fibromyalgia. My vision gets blurry and doubled vision at times, I get very confused and have bouts of short term memory loss. Sometimes the pain in my legs gets so bad that the only way I can describe it is having those long barbed fence posts hammered into the bottom of my feet and all the way up inside my legs. Sounds a bit uncomfortable right? Right! There are times all I can do is lay there and cry and you can’t even touch them to make them feel better because everywhere they are touched it feels like they are being cut by razor blades!

I have had 9 back surgeries total, 4 of them being neurostimulator implants/explants over the last decade and a half. I also have a condition that causes scar tissue to grow inside my body at random. Due to the four implants they placed all in the same spot I have a huge amount of scar tissue that has wrapped around my spinal cord leaving me with some other very high maintenance and painful disease called neurogenic bladder) causing me to have to self catheterize each time I empty my bladder. This I will have for life, as with my autoimmune diseases.

When my husband and I met I was decently healthy, I had pain from the handful of back surgeries I had prior to meeting him and I had some other health problems as well but I was able to work, hike, archery hunt…you know enjoy life. We got married in August of 2011, 3 weeks later we archery hunted Hells Canyon, Oregon and 2 moths after that my body started shutting down; my bladder stopped functioning, I would fall over and not be able to stand or walk, suddenly get extremely confused…within a couple months I was in a wheelchair a good portion of the time. I had stopped working and was going from one doctors appointment to another. Chris was literally having to take care of me most of the time. It continued to get worse for quite some time. Then over the past 6 months or so I have been walking with a walker or crutches and a leg brace for my drop foot. I have been able to actually do things more with the family, cook more and do things that a Mom should do and that I enjoy doing!

When I started this blog I was in remission. I was still hurting and having bad days but I also have some pretty good days. Yesterday I ended up going to the walk in clinic with an infection, I’m very antibiotic resistant and when I get an infection I usually end up pretty sick. Today being one of those really, really bad ones…I have not even gone to sleep yet and here it is 7:45a.m. Then my friend Jill came over and got me to come relax in her bed and watch my favorite shows at her house so she can be with me because I’m in a lot of pain. I was laying in bed watching tv when all of the sudden I got really sick. She took really good care of me as she always does.

Okay so let’s talk about how we cope with such things… At first it was hard for us to not feel like “Why is this happening to us? What did we do to deserve this?” When my husband and I were dating, engaged and newly married we were such an incredible couple, so compatible, so in love and life seemed to be so perfect! (Don’t worry we still are, we just have to work at it a bit more now that life happened). We both had great careers and a lot of goals and dreams together on the same page with each other. We were in a great position financially to save up to build our bigger home for our bigger family and the mindset to follow through with it. After I stopped working and didn’t have an income until 3 years later when my retirement came through and my medical bills just kept piling up and up and up until the stack of bills were larger than we are.

With that being said my husband is the most understanding, loving and level headed man I have ever met. He is working extremely hard to get us out of debt and to stick to a very minimalist budget. He is really good at that and even though I used to be I have somewhere along the way lost the ability to take care of these things without messing something up lol.
God is an awesome God, He loves us, takes care of us and will meet our every need; we just need to ask, pray, trust and have faith! The more positive you think about yourself or your situation the more positive you will be when you approach it. Have a smile on your face when you are doing a task you don’t enjoy or something you don’t appreciate is happening and eventually your brain will process that action as a positive or neutral position rather than negative. I hope that makes sense. I truly care about others, their needs before mine and their feelings and that helps me be happy even when my pain is extremely overwhelming.

I try not to have self pity rather when I begin to feel pity for myself I pray for someone else; and that helps me to take focus off any negativity of my own and offer a positive outlook and prayer for someone who needs it.

I hope you enjoyed reading my post today. I’m getting ready to paint my next sign so I will do another post with some more photos as soon as it is done. Thank you so very much for your continued support of following my blog, my Facebook page and my Instagram. Until next time, good happy healthy thoughts and God Bless!

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